to someone out there, I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't have done it. But I'm sorry too, like how aptly it was put, I'm not "fucking selfish".


Haha, always thought it'd be Me against the World.



(Ohh) (Yeah yeah)

Admit it, we're finished
You don't want me no more (No)
Like a night mare, I lived it
It was too big to ignore (Ooh)
I hear the sirens but they pass me by.
My hazard lights are flashing, somebody, anyone

HELP cause its an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So HELP, its like a bad surgery and now its time to recharge.
I'm starting over taking,

One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

Abandonded, yeah I'm crying.
Its like you left me for dead (So dead, so dead)
I'm so broken, my love's frozen.
How do you live with regrets (Oh woah)
I see the memories flash before my eyes.
My tank is running empty, somebody rescue me.

HELP cause its an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So HELP, its like a bad surgery
And now its time to recharge.
I'm starting over taking,

One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.

I'm starting over taking,
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

Its unexplainable
Kind of and unattainable
When the person you love aint enough.
I feel so pitiful
Look at my face you'll know the pain is in my eyes.
I need some, help.


HELP cause its an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So HELP its like a bad surgery and now its time to recharge.

HELP cause its an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So HELP its like a bad surgery and now its time to recharge.

I'm starting over taking,
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

I'm starting over taking,
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

;no, maybe ending it for the last time.



Hey ang, it's alright. I love every minute of it.




O.O I realize I'm quite slow on the uptake because I only saw the yahoo emails today.
I didn't really want to bring it up because I guess it's kind of blown over today after the large amount of tension and awkwardness in class today but this is my blog so go away if you don't want to read this.

1. Yeah, okay, I didn't help out on Wednesday. I had tuition at 5. I left the inkspiration tea session at 3. Two hours? Why didn't I help out? Because I wanted to go home and see my fucking grandmother for the first time in a month. Because I fucking miss her and I'm sorry if you don't feel happy about this, but I think spending time with my grandmother is more important that painting a door. Yes well this is my priority. Deal.

2. I know Chew and Shing and Jel did a lot for this Book Day. And I know Maggy has contributed A LOT for every single event from last year and this year. But last year: class banner, class deco, ACP? I'm sorry but the ncc people were mostly slacking in class/chasing seniors/playing games on their iphones/sleeping. So okay you contributed this time. Take it as repayment for all those times you hid behind the lockers and played TapTap Revenge. Fyi, I remember me, Maggy, Clarie, and a few others actually tried to to the class flag. And I know that for ACP, it was Maggy, Ak, me, Faith, Shihui slaving at the D&T lab before and even DURING ACP itself. And what did you ncc people come up with? Approximately 6 platypuses.

3. This may sound harsh, but I think it's fair for me to say it should be logical that top students from Singapore, people who have a relatively higher IQ than the rest of the cohort should know that health is more important than doing ANYTHING for Book Day. I really wished you guys had gone for dinner instead of trying to play hero and not eating.

4. You have no right to send out vulgar emails or bitch about the class on the whiteboard. No. Right. Mayning and others have already come up with a lot of examples last year about how Clarie, Hannah, etc. were stressed about class events. I remember Clarie even cried about one event once. I bet she bitched to herself, to her close friends. But she didn't insult the class, did she? Just goes to show the difference in maturity.

5. The bitching on the whiteboard was just uncalled for. You know, you're actually very bias towards certain people. I'm sure you know who they are. Example (and in no way am I blaming the people in this example because it's not their fault): "Sarah was sick and had softball so it's okay." BUT "Youjia...you had mc, but you could have tried?"
Yeah this is totally fair. Another one: "Mich was sick during bio and had french controle, never mind :)" BUT "Leyin...camp and CCA are not an excuse..." I bet you didn't know Leyin had a Jap test this week right? Get your facts right. Also, I don't think it's fair to say that people who have third lang tests this week should ignore their GRADED tests to paint doors. It's their choice if they want to mug for their test. You may not care about your test if you took third lang, but you can't blame them for wanting to score well.

6. I know my controle was over already. And btw, on Tuesday Megan had 2.4 run and she felt unwell so she didn't come for training. She went up to help you guys. FYI I HAD FUCKING TRAINING FROM 3.30 TO 6.30. Sorry, I am not (and never) going to skip training, which means a lot to me, for a non-graded helping-out of class thing (that sounded weird. nevermind.) You may have the liberty of skipping training but sorry I don't want a 75% attendance for CCA. Seeing as I'm the secretary, that would NOT be leading by example.

7. The way you have insulted the class on the whiteboard is ridiculous at most. Some people helped out more so they're better? That's shit. Also, be thankful some people bothered to help. Like Jel, for example: "Jel contributed a lot..she used her own money to buy the materials and stayed back. But a little less fooling around about seniors would have been better." WTF? Are you a teacher now? Is this our character assessment for our report book? Please. Although I don't get what's so cool about Murni Nadra, you don't need to criticize her like that.

8. Job delegation would have been good. Instead of saying: "Hey we need some help for Book Day", say: "Okay, we're assigning jobs for people for Book Day. Index no.s 1-10 go blahblah, index no.s 11-20 go blahblah." Or else we wouldn't know what was going on, no?

9. You guys practically discouraged us from helping! Example: Belle and Chia go over to the blackboard to draw. Megan WW immediately says: "Hey Belle and Chia, if you screw it up I'm not going to redraw." Yeah, she told me after that she just didn't want them to draw over the original drawings, she didn't mind them drawing their own stuff, but she didn't tell them at that point of them, so how would they know?

10. Last point: 8. This just created alot of awkwardness and tension in the class. Example: Miss Wani: "GOOD JOB GIRLS FOR THE DOOR!! I SEE YOU'RE GELLING TOGETHER AS A CLASS!!" She applauds. -awkward, cynical silence-
204 sucks. This is not your first day in our class. In order to get things down, you have to really be assertive and know what you're talking about. Yeah okay, if we suck, so do you.


I don't want to piss off Maggy, Megan, or Chew by saying this (that's why I'm not emailing the yahoogroups) and maybe this is raking up the past, but I just need to get this stuff out. I think the anger in the class has mostly simmered down to a slow boil, just like a well-roasted turkey 8D, so well whoever reads this post, don't ignite it again okay?

Labels: ranting

8:16 PM







And if I make it through today, will tomorrow be just the same? Am I just running in place? And if I stumble and if I fall, should I get up and carry on or will it just be all the same?

;it's gc all over again



It doesn't take strength to hide your heart... it takes strength to let someone else hold it in their hand when you know they could crush it so easily.